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azurelunatic) wrote2002-08-15 01:38 pm
azurelunatic) wrote2002-08-15 01:38 pm
Migods, there is communication!
To say that I "let Darkside see what makes me tick" would be inaccurate, of today. He already knows many, if not most, of the psychological structures inside me that make me do what I do; he knows what most of the inputs are for my reactions around him. He observes the ticking.
Today, I allowed him to see printouts of the internal states while the ticking was going on. Now, perhaps, he will have a better understanding of why these inputs and the psychological structures interact to produce a ticking response.
Communication. I love it.
To make the interaction even better, he doesn't understand why I called people who would not listen when I had something to say "friend" ever at all. That situation is not something that he calls friendship.
Darkside and Votania are my models for adult friendship, now. Certainly I've had friends in the past, but those friendships are the ones that have evolved since childhood, especially my relationship with Narcissa. Some of my adult friends aren't particularly close.
Somehow, Darkside and Votania are the people closest to me who I haven't known my whole life, with the most sane friendships. I'm not sure how we're making it work, but we are.
Today, I allowed him to see printouts of the internal states while the ticking was going on. Now, perhaps, he will have a better understanding of why these inputs and the psychological structures interact to produce a ticking response.
Communication. I love it.
To make the interaction even better, he doesn't understand why I called people who would not listen when I had something to say "friend" ever at all. That situation is not something that he calls friendship.
Darkside and Votania are my models for adult friendship, now. Certainly I've had friends in the past, but those friendships are the ones that have evolved since childhood, especially my relationship with Narcissa. Some of my adult friends aren't particularly close.
Somehow, Darkside and Votania are the people closest to me who I haven't known my whole life, with the most sane friendships. I'm not sure how we're making it work, but we are.