azurelunatic | General note:

I become irrational for all practical purposes when at that nod-off-to-sleep-at-any-second stage of tired, especially when kept awake by this and that and things that perhaps I should have just said "I need my sleep NOW" over.

I become irrational when having a panic attack, especially when the panic attack invokes the shade of a past crisis that nearly got my best friend killed.

Put need-sleep and panic attack together? Bad, bad combination. I'm surprised I was as coherent as I was; maybe I stayed awake those minutes to make sure I was awake enough before falling back to sleep so I wouldn't have nightmares. (I did dream about the movie theatre universe: I had a family, there, and there was conversation about the variety of urban scavenger who recycles aluminum.)

There's a fine line between putting up with some general baggage for a friendship (tact), and not being upfront.

In the future, I'm going to try to be more upfront; Darkside and I sound like we might be finally getting that way with each other. Despite the hysterical crying fits.

Yes, I have personality issues. No, I have no idea if they're going away or what any time soon. I do know that they get worse when I'm tired.