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azurelunatic) wrote2002-09-15 06:25 am
azurelunatic) wrote2002-09-15 06:25 am
Confusion
The Awful Realizations have disorganized my mind by coming out from such a level deep down within that I'm not really sure what's stable.
I don't even know if the Realizations are true. Well, I know the second one is. But the first? My instincts are telling me it's true, but my mind's having a difficult time with it. I shouldn't be, says Rational Mind, but the whisper says, Of course you should be. You always have. Ever heard of 'sublimation'?, which in turn undermines a few other things that are cornerstones of my universe. Darkside? Eeep.
This makes all my supposedly rational thought since that day (talking over stickers, giggling, general silliness) suspect.
Upwelling: a bunch of cold water from the bottom of the ocean, nutrient-rich, coming up to the surface.
It feels really damn weird. I don't know how to trust myself very well. I'll re-learn soon, I hope.
I don't even know if the Realizations are true. Well, I know the second one is. But the first? My instincts are telling me it's true, but my mind's having a difficult time with it. I shouldn't be, says Rational Mind, but the whisper says, Of course you should be. You always have. Ever heard of 'sublimation'?, which in turn undermines a few other things that are cornerstones of my universe. Darkside? Eeep.
This makes all my supposedly rational thought since that day (talking over stickers, giggling, general silliness) suspect.
Upwelling: a bunch of cold water from the bottom of the ocean, nutrient-rich, coming up to the surface.
It feels really damn weird. I don't know how to trust myself very well. I'll re-learn soon, I hope.
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