Oooh, interesting thought.

[azurelunatic]

wiredferret has some interesting thoughts on depression.

I can see how that's applicable. I know myself that once I get down low enough to be really bad, I don't want to change, because as it stands, it's a place that I've been before, and I don't really care to expend the effort. It would hurt too much, take too much energy, to try and drag myself out. So what if loving that idiot Shawn is hurting me? I love him, and my love of him is an integral part of me. I can live with it; learning how to unlove him, unlove him because he hurts me on purpose with his words, would be not-me.

It's scary what we define ourselves around, sometimes.

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[n3m3sis42.livejournal.com]

I agree with wiredferret... I'm in a similar position to him/her... I've had my depressive times, but they aren't nearly as bad or as frequent as the episodes seem to be for most depressives I know. I have been the main support for various very close friends of mine, past or present, who suffer from depression.

Everything Ferret said, I have said or thought a multitude of times, altho perhaps not quite so eloquently.

I'm sure it's a bigger bitch for the depressed person, but it's a bitch being that person who cares too. Because if you're at all aware, you know there's nothing you can do to fix things. You can be a friend, and offer support or attempts at comforting, but even if you know what might work or help, you can't make the person want to do those things. Sometimes it's enough to make me want to bang my head, so I try not to think about it too much.

[azurelunatic]

She's really good about saying things right, isn't she?

I've been on many sides of it.