Azure Jane Lunatic (Azz) 🌺 (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
azurelunatic) wrote2002-09-19 09:35 pm
azurelunatic) wrote2002-09-19 09:35 pm
Housekeeping
Looking back at the week, I would initially say that I hadn't made any progress, spiritually speaking, at all: I've been too busy dealing with Real Life.
Then, thinking about it:
I can forcibly de-stress in the middle of a hospital with my roommate unconscious. I can forcibly de-stress others, with their permission, in the same situation.
Quietly casting a sigil in the middle of a crowded hospital cafeteria is easy. Now, to accomplish this without the 3x5 notecard...
I uncovered the emotions from Shawn's attempted suicide, finally. There is the crying, screaming, yelling, accusatory rage. There is the chilled wax mask of terrified bravery. Of the two, the wax mask is the most damaging. I will be consciously stripping it off when it pops up again. It's a useful tool; I shall have to apply the same feeling to places where it will be more useful.
Then, thinking about it:
I can forcibly de-stress in the middle of a hospital with my roommate unconscious. I can forcibly de-stress others, with their permission, in the same situation.
Quietly casting a sigil in the middle of a crowded hospital cafeteria is easy. Now, to accomplish this without the 3x5 notecard...
I uncovered the emotions from Shawn's attempted suicide, finally. There is the crying, screaming, yelling, accusatory rage. There is the chilled wax mask of terrified bravery. Of the two, the wax mask is the most damaging. I will be consciously stripping it off when it pops up again. It's a useful tool; I shall have to apply the same feeling to places where it will be more useful.