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Azure Jane Lunatic (Azz) 🌺 ([personal profile] azurelunatic) wrote2003-10-11 04:17 pm

Weather report

The weather on Mars is nice.

Regarding the one thing: have been disturbed, disrupted, conflicted, and angstful. Reaching a point of diminishing returns, and regretting it, because if I let it drop, it will drop. Loyalty, honor, love, and self-protection.

The other: starting to scare me. My brain races down the traditional tracks too fast. Still, I wonder, I speculate, I even take it as a foregone conclusion, which I shouldn't. Not that it's traditional, anyway.

Escape velocity. I want to catch him in my wake. Biological time bomb. This is my brain. This is my brain as a spinster. This, more crucially, is my brain without hugs. I know the last person who hugged me was Little Fayoumis. Before that, I can't remember. I don't think it was in the last week. Maybe it was -- maybe it was Yakky on Thursday. I'm starved for touch, and don't want physical contact with anyone.

Breakdown season again?