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azurelunatic) wrote2002-03-24 12:48 am
azurelunatic) wrote2002-03-24 12:48 am
This masquerade is getting older
I think it's time to bow out as Adam's woman.
Darkside, my romantic love for him, kept things stable. I'm cut adrift, romantically, and as much as R. is a good friend and a fun lover, he's not a stable mooring to set a relationship against. I feel that Adam is entirely miscomprehending the nature of my relationship to R. R. is a good friend to me, and we play around sexually a lot and laugh about it, but the emotional age difference is too staggeringly vast to make it anything more than play-love, and perhaps not even that. Oddly enough, I can go to sleep leaned against R. on the couch, but cannot go to sleep in the same bed with him.
Adam and I will have to reorganize our relationship with each other based on Darkside's not being a totally key factor in my life anymore. I'm romantically ungrounded, with a highly charged thing with Adam going on. Are we nuts? Well, yes, if we keep this up. Burnout.
We'll have to see.
Darkside, my romantic love for him, kept things stable. I'm cut adrift, romantically, and as much as R. is a good friend and a fun lover, he's not a stable mooring to set a relationship against. I feel that Adam is entirely miscomprehending the nature of my relationship to R. R. is a good friend to me, and we play around sexually a lot and laugh about it, but the emotional age difference is too staggeringly vast to make it anything more than play-love, and perhaps not even that. Oddly enough, I can go to sleep leaned against R. on the couch, but cannot go to sleep in the same bed with him.
Adam and I will have to reorganize our relationship with each other based on Darkside's not being a totally key factor in my life anymore. I'm romantically ungrounded, with a highly charged thing with Adam going on. Are we nuts? Well, yes, if we keep this up. Burnout.
We'll have to see.