Azure Jane Lunatic (Azz) 🌺 (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
azurelunatic) wrote2002-04-28 02:01 pm
azurelunatic) wrote2002-04-28 02:01 pm
Spiritual-energetic "firsts"
Until moving to Arizona and going to DeVry, I was almost entirely solo. Anything I did, I did by myself. In younger years, Narcissa and I practiced the usual childhood magics together. We have since parted paths, through distance and diverging interests.
There were a few moments here when there were group works, but that was a student/teacher tutorial fashion, demonstrate, copy, do the same thing together.
There came a moment when two people joined hands and joined powers, without reservation, for the greater good. Never before have I felt something so graceful, inspiring, intimate.
That, I think, was my true loss of virginity.
And what did I do with it? I fell in love.
There were a few moments here when there were group works, but that was a student/teacher tutorial fashion, demonstrate, copy, do the same thing together.
There came a moment when two people joined hands and joined powers, without reservation, for the greater good. Never before have I felt something so graceful, inspiring, intimate.
That, I think, was my true loss of virginity.
And what did I do with it? I fell in love.
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I don't honestly think I've ever done a working where my power joined with someone else's. I imagine it would require a trust level far above what I have with anyone except my Falcon, and he...doesn't do this sort of thing at the moment. He used to, and he will again, but not right now. He's working through things, religiously. It's fucked him over in the past, you see.
I've done workings with Amber, but that's been the separate-paths-to-the-same-goal thing. She works more from a priestess point of view, while I work elemental magic...we make a great team, but our energies don't cojoin. And if they did, it would be more likely a matter of me gathering in energies from her and directing them for the both of us. But that's our dynamic: I lead, she follows. It's not an equal relationship, and never has been.
No, at this point in my life, there isn't anyone that this is likely to happen with. I look forward to it. A virginity I never realized I had. I love the way you make me look at life sometimes. We make each other think, I think (at least I *believe* I make you think sometimes in the same way you prod my own thoughts; I could be wrong), and it's good for both of us.
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This is with a person I trust immensely, beyond reason, though we each know that there is an entire iceberg of us left for us to explore in and with each other when we have the time and intimacy.
Even doing as simple a thing as "Your shields are shattered; let me recharge you"... When another person donates energy, it retains the overtones and notes of their personality. Even if your energies are compatible enough that you need not cleanse it of them to have your system use it, it still feels like them until it absorbs enough of you.
With this partner, it's almost as if the energy flowing in is mine. It would require fierce magical barrier protections to keep our energies from merging if working together.
It's ... intense. The mental feel of milk chocolate and mint: creamy/smooth, cool, refreshing, sweet. Holding the contact in my mind, trying to describe it.
Oh my.
I think we may have just cured my depression. I have some visualized mental architecture, and we just found why some of it does some of the unfortunate things that it does. The banana-structure had loose bolts. I tightened them while he held it upright in place so I wouldn't accidentally fasten it at Worst Depressed.
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I'm sorry hun. I really couldn't resist.
Dave, you're the absolute limit.
Hee hee hee. :)
Actually, it's smily/frowny banana, rather than erect/limp banana. :P