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[azurelunatic]

Belovedest's new work schedule is kicking in. Friday's a better shopping day than the weekend, in general. In nature, when an otherwise prey-looking animal has extremely bright colors, it often signals toxicity. Don't eat me, you'll regret it. There are now two days at work where Belovedest wears one of their unfuckwithable bright red shirts. (They have two of them as of some time ago, when I found a reasonable deal on a second.)

My hip varies between fairly calm and completely terrible. Sometimes I just Take To My Bed over it.

New therapist isn't bad, but there are a few things we're not on the same page about. Normal for humans! Today we wandered off into Shooting The Shit about gender essentialism. (He's against it, and has a few feminine-coded hobbies, but I think this was the first time he'd heard the phrase.) I also got to explain about the way that some gender dysphoria doesn't become apparent until after the intervention takes. (Like my uterus.) This was news to him! I'm glad to have added that into his toolkit. He, uh, thought that since the uterus is internal, it's not necessarily a huge problem. (!!!!) I mentioned that there are times that it makes itself known. Regularly. Which was how we got into gender essentialism: the aggressive pinkness of menstrual gear.

And he had a fishmum, by any other name.

I got some bubble tea powders on Monday, for the tea part. Also some other miscellany, like the soup base I'd been sent for. Tuesday was my psych appointment; I plan to ask next time why we're on a 6 week cadence when my prescriptions are at a 30 day. I'm adjusting my sleep med dosage back to the previous level from last month. I've also got some new features on my sleep chart spreadsheet, like the star ratings and the average times for the month.

The cheddar bay biscuits just came out of the oven, so I should apply myself to those.

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[ysabetwordsmith]

>> In nature, when an otherwise prey-looking animal has extremely bright colors, it often signals toxicity. Don't eat me, you'll regret it. There are now two days at work where Belovedest wears one of their unfuckwithable bright red shirts. <<

I am pleased that someone else uses warning coloration. :D

[sithjawa]

I’m glad there are some times when the hip is fairly calm. From the outside it seems they’ve become more frequent over time and that the level of “ow crap” that’s defined as a low is lower over time. If that even parses 😅

But I’m very sorry it’s still Completely Terrible sometimes. Terrible is terrible! QED.

[azurelunatic]

It seems like the episodes are becoming shorter, though. Which is good. I've taken to tracking them in my new meds tracker. Which is its own problem, but it does display 0-10 graphs all right! Just not graphs in the hundreds.

[redsixwing]

Cheddar biscuits!

some gender dysphoria doesn't become apparent until after the intervention takes

hey wait is this a known thing?

[azurelunatic]

I don't know if it's clinically known, but anecdotally it's known. A friend didn't clock how much their lack of top surgery was adding to their unwillingness to be out and about until afterwards; I knew my uterus was trying to kill me but didn't think it registered anywhere on the gender front. But it turned out that the spectre of forced childbearing was something that had weighted me down not just on a human level, but on a gender level too.

[redsixwing]

Hm. Hmmmmm.
Well heck.

Thank you - the anecdata really does help, in this case.

I was honestly worried that the fact that (most of) my (willingness to be semipublic about) gender things was after my hysterectomy somehow made me, idk. fake nonbinary. Somehow reacting to the yeeterus as if it were a defining something instead of a health intervention?

But it turned out that the spectre of forced childbearing was something that had weighted me down not just on a human level, but on a gender level too.

Yeah, I feel that one in my bones.

[silveradept]

Hooray for a therapist that seems to be able to learn from someone who is offering new tools for their toolbox.