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I am glad I got to talk with Darkside tonight. Told him about Yakky. He didn't sound overenthusiastic about the concept. We talked. There were a few delightful moments... bad joking about us both being in bed for the call... me hardly being able to find the words to talk around telling him that there is a person who would be my Primary, if that person should ever date me... me being even more tongue-tied over telling him that I know what his schedule is like, and that I'm honored that he should take out any of his free time to spend it with me.

Darkside's never been one to be comfortable with strong emotion. He suggested caffeine. We have a new banter-cliché: "I've missed you." "That's not what the bruises say..."


We had the exchange about him being a nice guy, again. No one but for a few people see that side of him. Everyone else gets to see the rough, spiky, sarcastic, defensive, closed-off side of him. He cracked that his lack of a reputation could be useful in certain circles of work.

He's quite a bit less bland than Illyan, though. And he hasn't plans to take over the world.

...Every little window inside his head, even just the jokes, are delightful.


We grow together. I still want to learn him enough, be trusted enough, for those moments of his, when he needs someone... it feels awkward, and uneven, to always be the weak one. But I suppose for that to work, I'll have to grow to attain a higher position of strength than his... I'm getting better. Day by day, little act of Will by Will, I become myself. I think he still sees me partly as I will be... I like that.

Darth sigs from the Grey Side

JL, Darth Needs To Watch It Again Without Distractingly Hot Geekboys Sitting Next To Me

Cool.

275.

Now, let's keep this encouraging trend going...

Day

What started out as a simple mission to the store for votania, to get stuff for the party, turned into an all-afternoon gallivant about town. marxdarx and I were sent on a mission of Action! Adventure! Excitement! to get stuff.

We each had our own errands to run as well, so we bussed down to the hobby store and the dollar store, got stuff there, then headed for the mall with the Herb Stop and Jutenhoops in it. Got fireman helmet for Nephew, and priced the perfume roller bottles ($2.10). Stopped into Bookstar for far too long. I drooled over the computer books more than the magic books.

Headed for home. It had started blowing by this time, and the sky was a lovely colour grey. Traffic was backed up so badly that we were able to catch the bus... though we had to wait for another bus to come along at the place where we needed to transfer, the first one was filled so full.

We went shopping for groceries, then. I covered some of the extras. My father's principles of shopping include covering the essentials and always having ample supplies of staples on hand, but also not neglecting the little things that make everything so much better. I got tangerines and candy canes as well as the stuff we needed for eating over the next couple days...

When we emerged, it was raining. Delightful! I had no jacket. We walked home, giggling. Mmm. All soggy.

The apartment was nice and warm. ralmathon was parked in front of the PS2.

votania made yummy chicken-things for dinner. Mmm. I made rice.


Mmm. Home is a good place.

Awww.

I feel all special now.

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iroshi has corrupted me. I am weak.

I read.

I giggle.