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Jun. 2nd, 1997 05:58 pmMonday, June 2, 1997 17:58
JoshC and I spent some time together in The Dungeon. There’s an amazing amount of dirt on the floor of that place! It’s rather hard to brush off the back of one’s shirt. Shawn was very right to have faith in me and JoshC. He more than made up for my ineptitude. I’m definitely happy having him lying on top of me, especially when he is kissing me and stuff...what is it about guys that they like to go back to when they were little when they’re having fun? I don’t mind him sucking on my nipples--in fact, the sensation added to my general feeling of well-being--but I’m just psychologically curious. He was the first guy I’ve allowed to put his hands down my pants. Hey, why not? That came out wrong. I’m attempting to forget my passion for Shawn at the deft hands (and other parts) of JoshC.
Huh. I guess Maureen’s right. In fact, I think that I’m going to very much obey that little instinct. About open-mouthed kissing. I don’t especially like it all that much, at least not with JoshC. Or with Bryan. I think I’d enjoy it more with Josh or with the Lady E...or, yes, with Shawn. Or even with Kim. But...I just don’t fully trust JoshC. I can trust him with my body. But I’m not prepared to trust him emotionally. I like it when he holds me. I’m usually Mona when he holds me, as Mona needs someone to hold her. Just thinking of all those times I’ve needed to be held and haven’t been...it’s so nice to have a lover of sorts. Who knows, we may go all the way.
Gods. I just had a thought. The "ruby" earrings are for my 17th birthday, yes? Well, it would be a very silly thing if I were to have no reason to wear those damn earrings by then...and that birthday is only Wednesday, two days from today.
Jack did want to go further...but I decided that taking off my pants would be a bit too far. He was down there with me quite a bit too long.
I fell and hurt my ankle and my knee. They feel not so wonderful at the moment. The right ankle; right knee.
Oh, I collected yesterday an offer of another bridesmaid for my wedding with Shawn: JoshC. Hey, why not? He’s rather stubborn, even though I love Shawn...gods. Gods.
Got an email from Kay today. Fun!!!
JoshC and I spent some time together in The Dungeon. There’s an amazing amount of dirt on the floor of that place! It’s rather hard to brush off the back of one’s shirt. Shawn was very right to have faith in me and JoshC. He more than made up for my ineptitude. I’m definitely happy having him lying on top of me, especially when he is kissing me and stuff...what is it about guys that they like to go back to when they were little when they’re having fun? I don’t mind him sucking on my nipples--in fact, the sensation added to my general feeling of well-being--but I’m just psychologically curious. He was the first guy I’ve allowed to put his hands down my pants. Hey, why not? That came out wrong. I’m attempting to forget my passion for Shawn at the deft hands (and other parts) of JoshC.
Huh. I guess Maureen’s right. In fact, I think that I’m going to very much obey that little instinct. About open-mouthed kissing. I don’t especially like it all that much, at least not with JoshC. Or with Bryan. I think I’d enjoy it more with Josh or with the Lady E...or, yes, with Shawn. Or even with Kim. But...I just don’t fully trust JoshC. I can trust him with my body. But I’m not prepared to trust him emotionally. I like it when he holds me. I’m usually Mona when he holds me, as Mona needs someone to hold her. Just thinking of all those times I’ve needed to be held and haven’t been...it’s so nice to have a lover of sorts. Who knows, we may go all the way.
Gods. I just had a thought. The "ruby" earrings are for my 17th birthday, yes? Well, it would be a very silly thing if I were to have no reason to wear those damn earrings by then...and that birthday is only Wednesday, two days from today.
Jack did want to go further...but I decided that taking off my pants would be a bit too far. He was down there with me quite a bit too long.
I fell and hurt my ankle and my knee. They feel not so wonderful at the moment. The right ankle; right knee.
Oh, I collected yesterday an offer of another bridesmaid for my wedding with Shawn: JoshC. Hey, why not? He’s rather stubborn, even though I love Shawn...gods. Gods.
Got an email from Kay today. Fun!!!
