Wished
this morning that Darkside and I would have the opportunity to wrestle with less interference. We did. It was great. We both were pushing ourselves and each other hard enough to become dripping and sticky and exhausted, and I want to do that again. It started out as a pillowfight, and escalated. I can't remember how long it lasted. It had to have been over by three, though. Perhaps it was over by two.
It's just so great to get physically tangled up with Darkside, even knowing that nothing's going to happen other than wrestling and bopping with pillows. It's secure. It's comforting. It's exhilarating. It's painful.
Fortunately for our reputations, Votania ran out of film before the wrestling really started to take off. She says she'll have to "see what develops".
This should be fun.
Next time Darkside comes over, I don't expect to be tangled up with him to quite that level at all. It's just been so long since we've had a proper spar that when I am let loose at him in an informal situation with relaxed code of conduct, I wrap myself around him and don't have an easy time of letting go. To be quite honest, I was reminded of the sex that a loving couple has after being left too long apart: enthusiastic, barely-controlled, very physical, very demanding and needing.
We had the high level of physical contact. My body's beginnng to believe that he isn't hiding secret passions for me, as he doesn't always gravitate towards me when left aimless. He still gravitates towards Votania, but her planet's pull is waning from his influences; he is only slightly tugged in her direction; he almost navigates freely now, and is without the painful avoidance. But there was the touching, today, and we pressed body against body, strained muscle to muscle, clasped and pushed and grasped and pulled and twisted and stretched, all still while in our clothes, guiding our hands away from each other's crotches, his hands not touching my breasts. The wonderful warm
feel of him seeped into me, wrestling, sitting next to each other just barely brushing arms on the couch, lying with my head resting on the pillow in his lap afterwards. He's so very very warm.