Giggling Lunatic

If I try to keep secrets from Darkside, he drags them out of me. Not by tricking me into telling, as BJ did, but by probing to see where my reactions lie.

Now, if there were something that I had a very valid reason for not wanting to talk about, and I explained it to Darkside, he would respect that, and not pry.

But this morning's not-spoken-of was not that sort of thing. From my perspective, it does have impact upon Darkside; anything that has any sort of dramatic impact upon me has impact upon Darkside.

Darkside dragged it out of me, by virtue of me saying "Shut up!" and hiding under my jacket. Goaded, I snapped out a few limitations, and threatened the back of his neck with claws. There was much giggling, and more blushing.

Love, lust, whatever.

For whatever reason, to demonstrate something, Darkside bit my arm gently this morning.

Warned him that perhaps he did not want to be doing that, based on what it did to me.

He has developed a pattern of joking about me taking off my shirt in the cafeteria. That, combined with his obvious attention to my cleavage, has me wondering.

Skippy told me that he'd have gladly been my fuckbuddy five years ago, but he's monogamous now.

Yay for the rainbow. One sign per element, all five. *sigh* I'm never lonely when I'm with Darkside. Other times, though...

Dawn noticed me sparkling again today. Ooops. Ah well, more for the lapis and gold dragon to charge up on.

*sigh* Back to the grind

Just applied for the two promising-looking jobs.

Will contact Rachel for information about her company, as I need to get my ass skating.

Family vs. Votania vs. Boyfriend

For fucking ever, Votania's mother has ruined Votania's romantic relationships. This hasn't been by disapproval, or outright forbidding of relationships, but instead by too much maternal involvement. Votania's mother comes down heavily and gooshily all over the relationship, giving Votania so much overdone maternal lovingkindness that eventually Votania breaks up with the guy to save her own sanity.

Enough is enough.

For the past coming up on two years, Votania's mother has had a new situation to wrap her mind around: cute little Azz. Irresistable force? Immobile object? Votania's mother now addresses her eldest daughter by her legal name, her name-of-preference, and has convinced the rest of the family to begin doing the same. Furthermore, she thinks it was her idea. Odd, then, that the words I heard coming from her lips in speaking with the rest of the family were those same words I used, edgily, upon her...

Votania was concerned, rightfully so, about the prospect of Thanksgiving at her mother's house with a boyfriend. (Yep, votania and marxdarx are dating!!) Her mother makes life with a boyfriend hell.

I pointed out one key thing: she's never had a family holiday, a boyfriend, and me all in the same place before. Votania brightened a little at the prospect, and said that it was true; it was like I had some sort of power over her mother or something.

I identified it: I show, more consistently and effectively, my love and caring for Votania than her own mother does, and her mother knows it. And somewhere within that dysfunctional family structure, Grandma does love Votania. It probably grates that I get along better with Votania than she does... and, consequently, I am a Good Example, and my advice is taken seriously.

Thanksgiving's going to be interesting. We'll see if Votania's mother backs off on her own. If she doesn't, it'll be time to give her a compassionate kick in the metaphorical pants and improve her relationship with her favorite daughter some, if she chooses to accept the advice.

Yaaay! (Many forms of magic-geekery going on at once)

First and foremost, marxdarx will be moving in with us. His mother won't be happy. Oh fucking well. He'll be coming with us when we go to California. He's part of the family, and neither she nor I is letting go. How are we going to fit his stuff in here? Very easily. She's running all over with a giddy grin and a measuring tape.

Second, I've been babbling back and forth with boojum about this and that.

Third, relatively new LJ friend sithjawa and I are magic-geeking here and here. Delightful, and soaking up much of my creative energy. Mmm, geekery.