azurelunatic

I live on LJ. amberfox and I are notorious for our long and odd phone conversations, and I have IM discussions with people, but as I know them, they're LJ people first and foremost. People who I've never met in person can me marked "real friends" in my head, whereas some of the people I know face-to-face are not Real Friends, because they haven't met the bits of me that matter.

I prefer written media to television and movies. ( I got used to books, and I like them better. )

I'm bisexual, polyamorous, pagan, fen, and multiple. ( I used to introduce myself to potential friends in this general fashion to see if they'd scare easily. )

I've never dated Darkside. ( That's not to say that I'm not madly in love with him. )

I might as well have been a father. ( Once upon a time, I gained a Virtual Sister and her son, the Little Fayoumis. )

I am not socially confident offline. ( My social confidence came to me later in my youth. )

Despite the strong LJ presence, I'm actually introverted. ralmathon is not-People. figment0 is People, now. Sadly.) When I have an overexposure on People, it winds up manifesting itself as something that looks a lot like agoraphobia, except I can go outside; I just can't be around People.

That's the severe end. In non-crucial stages, this means that after two to six hours of being around People, I can, will, and must withdraw to a place of quiet safety without People. Sometimes this can be as simple as sitting in the corner with a book. Other times it needs must manifest itself as actually going home, or bidding my guests farewell. I am hesitant to host gatherings of People, since my social spoons are unpredictable.

LJ is not face-interaction, and I can withdraw and go read a fic or something else if I'm feeling too socially pressured. It's not that I'm shy, or unwilling to reveal my thoughts: it's that talking means People.

I assume that I'm perfectly average in most respects. ( Mama and Dad saw how smart the two of us were, and raised us to not really realize it. )