awake and alive

and almost human again.

...thanks, jdllama for at least making an attempt at dealing with tired cranky depressive 'Ni. You're just not used to it; you don't know the keywords to bring me out. Hell, even I doubt I know these days.

Sat on the patio with the rain smacking me in the nose and crocheted for a while. Balanced me out, a little.

...Not a good evening.

Sleep

Finally time for me to crash myself.

...Hopefully Adam will return by morning?

Oh, and in passing...

Comparing Anne McCaffery's villains with Lois McMaster Bujold's, Bujold's are far more human, with a better range of human failings. McCaffrey's seem, these days, to be uniformly vile and all who encounter them had damn well better hate them, because they are so vile.

Bujold's... well... Just as in real life, perhaps you might not notice that they are quite that bad, on first glance. Their brands of evil are born out of a desire to do their own right thing, in some cases. An adherence to principle. The desire to do right, even after they've lost touch with reality.

The only Bujold villains that measure up to the later McCaffrey standard of vile would be Prince Serg and Vorrutyer, the evil sex criminals. No redeeming values, there; no hope for them. The only decent thing to do for them is kill them, which happens as a midpoint to the book, not the conclusion. Still, a mindwarper like Vorrutyer is more interesting than your garden variety evil pedophile/slaver.

To be fair, I must cite the Oldtimers. Now, there were some good villains. They'd started out doing What Was Right, and the culture clash, not inherent evil of their own, turned out to be their undoing. After a while, they became a decent threat and rundown and yucky, but it was a nice character evolution. I liked it.

Menolly's parents were also good as far as ethical antagonists go. Sure, they made their daughter's life hell. But they did it in accordance with what they believed to be right, rather than doing it just for the sake of being evil. There are only so many times you can tell the story of someone evil being redeemed to good, though it's an old (and often lovely) story. It's far more interesting to get two mutually antagonistic parties, both on the side of good, talking to each other...

Character evolution good. Evil characters just for the sake of being utterly vile and evil ... no thanks. I can get that on the news if I want it.

On unemployment, half-expected...

Well, to paraphrase the words of Surak through Diane Duane, you've realized that the le-matya is cozied up to your favorite pillow in bed, and you're going to call Animal Control in the morning when their main offices open, and meanwhile you're snoozing on the couch. Perfectly aware of the situation, about to take steps, but the time is not quite yet right.

Roommates

Odd things happened, yesterday at work. I had rosalynde do the update here because I didn't feel quite up to talking about it from "my" perspective.

It's an interesting living situation. We are currently determining that no, there is no way either one of us would be willing to swap out permanently. Regan and Dave are great, but they aren't my loves.

Decisions, decisions.

Well, looks like V. is asking Adam for her to be #1 in his life.

...He has not yet made a decision yet, but his current leaning is towards her.

...That almost pisses me off enough to want him to leave. Everything that's normal-female and self-preserving in me is shouting to get him the hell out of my room, my apartment, my heart, before the time bomb explodes.

I don't trust her, in short. I do not know her well enough to know that she won't pull the same damn Pill trick that Shawn's wife pulled on him before they were engaged. He says she wouldn't, couldn't. I'm not so sure.

He hasn't made his decision yet, but he wants her and he knows he wants her.

So I cry.

Whee!

...Potential girl-bonding time with wiredferret ... if there is time. Unfortunate airline problem may be converted into fun for almost the whole family, potentially with coffee.

I should be getting myself scrubbed up extra nice and ready to fly out the door should arrangements for crashing into each other be made.

New tradition:

Pick out a new children's book for your grown children for major holidays. Send.

Nice for library building.