copy/paste; respect: self/other.
Jun. 3rd, 2002 01:18 amand that feeling at the pit of your stomach where you know you've just done something that the person you respect most, even more deep down than your parents; something that will make this person think less of you.
So you plot and scheme to not tell it to them, to conceal it so well that they'll never ask.
And you know deep down in that same place that it shouldn't give a shit what they think; it's your life, dammit, and you are who you are, with your own damn weaknesses; and it feels good anyway; they're just a tightass; what should they care?
And you maybe cry, because you know that you want their respect. Even if you shouldn't have it.
So you plot and scheme to not tell it to them, to conceal it so well that they'll never ask.
And you know deep down in that same place that it shouldn't give a shit what they think; it's your life, dammit, and you are who you are, with your own damn weaknesses; and it feels good anyway; they're just a tightass; what should they care?
And you maybe cry, because you know that you want their respect. Even if you shouldn't have it.