Had some terrifying dreams that woke me up at three in the morning. Dreamed that Marx, of all people, had turned into a stoner, one with completely untrustworthy friends, which is so not him. It was probably symbolic of something else, but drat if I can figure out what.
I'd just hit my snooze button to get a little more sleep in, when I heard some scuffling inside my room. Turned out that the cat was on my altar. He'd stolen the feather from the altar and chewed it up (again!!) yesterday, and got washed for that -- I retrieved him from under my chair, hissed in his face (he did not like that) and washed him.
That woke me up; I came to school. I got there ten minutes before six. Darkside got there ten minutes after six. I taunted him; he taunted me for coming to school so early.
I have a database test today. DDL is Data Definition Language; DML is data manipulation language.
Darkside knows about that little issue with my shields; he tries to not exploit it often unless he's making a point. I told him that if I actually minded it, he wouldn't be able to exploit it. And I asked how he was doing, given that the grouch level lately has been higher than normal. Evidently he needs more sleep.
Queried as to why he was bothered so much. Evidently he's not bothered that much; it's just that he's been tracking my emotions over a period of time with the whole thing, and he's seen what it's done to me, and that's evidently some non-good things.
Thinking about it, my reason for staying in any sort of relationship now? Ekaterin's reason. I need hugs. I get grumpy and evil without hugs. The cat doesn't hug back. Votania does hug back, but... yeah. Hugging Darkside is asking to get elbowed away and nose-pinched. Neighbor does hug better... but somehow that doesn't last very long.
ralmathon suggested a long-term goal last night, saying that it would take quite a while to accomplish...
Just don't know how he's going to turn out once he's grown up. Don't want to tie myself down right now.
I'd just hit my snooze button to get a little more sleep in, when I heard some scuffling inside my room. Turned out that the cat was on my altar. He'd stolen the feather from the altar and chewed it up (again!!) yesterday, and got washed for that -- I retrieved him from under my chair, hissed in his face (he did not like that) and washed him.
That woke me up; I came to school. I got there ten minutes before six. Darkside got there ten minutes after six. I taunted him; he taunted me for coming to school so early.
I have a database test today. DDL is Data Definition Language; DML is data manipulation language.
Darkside knows about that little issue with my shields; he tries to not exploit it often unless he's making a point. I told him that if I actually minded it, he wouldn't be able to exploit it. And I asked how he was doing, given that the grouch level lately has been higher than normal. Evidently he needs more sleep.
Queried as to why he was bothered so much. Evidently he's not bothered that much; it's just that he's been tracking my emotions over a period of time with the whole thing, and he's seen what it's done to me, and that's evidently some non-good things.
Thinking about it, my reason for staying in any sort of relationship now? Ekaterin's reason. I need hugs. I get grumpy and evil without hugs. The cat doesn't hug back. Votania does hug back, but... yeah. Hugging Darkside is asking to get elbowed away and nose-pinched. Neighbor does hug better... but somehow that doesn't last very long.
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Just don't know how he's going to turn out once he's grown up. Don't want to tie myself down right now.