california storm (backdated)

2003.01.06 Wind. Big wind. Went out in it. Midnight. Had to. Beautiful and too big for my mind. Made incoherent noises of delight.

miss you guys. Power out. Chilly some. Wish I had someone(s) here to snuggle.

Feeling far more centered with personalities defined properly. Must reintroduce myselves to Darkside. Not to mention the Temple Raven Moon crew.

Interesting.

A very good Operator.

We talked to everybody, pretty much.

Stuff.

Notes for the user manual:

When I'm in angry/depressive mode, leaving me alone will hurt me. Specifically when I shut everyone out is when I need company the most. NOT aggressively cheerful company, just a silent hug and a presence. When I feel like talking about it, I will. Hugs and long silences work.


I'm more than just a bad mood. Call me Marah. Most of you, I don't like. You don't like me either, so that's quite fair. Anyone I talk to too often gets resentful and finds me tiresome, which really fucks it up for the rest of them, who need just as much in the way of hugs and stuff. Understand that what you do to me, you do to all of them, and what you do to them, you do to me. Even if I'm not the one Out then.

What most of you don't get about Darkside is that he and I talk all the time. Hear that? We talk. He understands me. Not very damn many people understand me. And if they do, they hate me more. Except for him. And iroshi. Everybody, even she just wants me to go away. But they talk to me. But somehow, he manages to care about me. Even me.

From palmtop, backdated: wind

2003.01.06 Wind. Big wind. Went out in it. Midnight. Had to. Beautiful and too big for my mind. Made incoherent noises of delight.

miss you guys. Power out. Chilly some. Wish I had someone(s) here to snuggle.

Feeling far more centered with personalities defined properly. Must reintroduce myselves to Darkside. Not to mention the Temple Raven Moon crew.