Rain

It's been raining off and on all day. I like the rain. It hasn't been heavy, this time, just constant and drippy and obscurely comforting.

I'm feeling somewhat better, though still uncertain about food.

Assorted to do:

See Phantom of the Opera movie.
Marshal my arguments at my bondmate about appropriateness vs. the other potential mates out there, regarding your opinion that you're not suited to me at all.
Vacuum.
Wash dishes.
Clean altar & see if there's any junk to ditch.
Burn CD for above-mentioned bondmate with random tracks I think he'll like. Happiness is a good mix CD, and/or a good portion of one's assymetrical bondmate's music collection. Test the burn. Call said bondmate's mother and figure out a good time to try and drop by.

Freewill of the Week

Gemini Horoscope for week of December 30, 2004
http://www.freewillastrology.com/horoscopes/gemini.html
Gemini (May 21-June 20)
To guide your journey in 2005, I've selected two quotes. I suggest you write them out and keep them in your wallet or under your pillow for the next ten months. The first is from mythologist Joseph Campbell: "The goal of life is to make your heartbeat match the beat of the universe, to match your nature with Nature." Your second keynote comes from the ancient Chinese sage, Lao Tzu: "Stop leaving and you will arrive. Stop searching and you will see. Stop running away and you will be found." Now here's your homework, Gemini: Meditate on how these themes articulate two angles of approach to the same joyful work.

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Cancer Horoscope for week of December 30, 2004
http://www.freewillastrology.com/horoscopes/cancer.html
Cancer (June 21-July 22)
Since 1991, my Cancerian friend Jared has donated blood to a local blood bank 105 times. He volunteers as a big brother to fatherless kids and donates 20 percent of his salary to charity. Yet I've never once heard him ask anyone for help. Vanessa, another Cancerian friend, compulsively takes care of all her friends, bringing them home-cooked meals and thoughtful gifts whenever they're down. I know she suffers bouts of depression herself sometimes, but as far as I'm aware, no one brings her treats. Jared and Vanessa are going to be the poster children for my crusade to bring balance to your life in 2005. You simply must stop giving more than you receive; you've got to expand your capacity to accept assistance and blessings from other people.

Things of Silliness

The Squirrel King RPG character (via sithjawa)
Another anonymous meme: If you could fuck anyone on LJ, who would you fuck? O, the shagging.
I am evil, and may have gained two recruits for next year's nanowrimo with one stone. Details to follow, after I can stop giggling.

Realizations

I'm no longer pissed or even peeved with Darkside for telling his friend that I had multiple personalities and freaking out all over it with the guy. It wouldn't have worked anyway, and while I'm still curious as to the underlayer of my bondmate's motivation in sharing this bit of intelligence with the fellow, I'm not angry or annoyed about it anymore.

This is a good thing.

I'm not sure why I got over it, though.