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ADHD output
Mar. 10th, 2022 01:39 amI was playing clickygames and I was thinking on the nostalgic insistance that modern amusements suppress creative output.
There's some degree of good point there. Time I spend matching little colored blobs doesn't translate into writing, or stone carving, or really any useful pursuit. ADHD brains seek stimulation. The colorful stories and drawings that I might have been making...
A phrase popped into my head: You presume control of the output.
Meaning, that rewind me thirty years, give or take, and contemplate my younger self. My options are limited. How am I entertaining myself?
Here is the big computer. There is the open WordPerfect document. What brilliant thing could I be writing?
On the other side of the screen, I double click and the King of Hearts joins his queen. Cards fly out and bounce. Solitaire.
Or I could be making a picture based packing list for a trip I'll never go on, and spend half the afternoon making sure the sprite representing the pocket squirt gun is pixel-perfect.
Those are vaguely constructive. What if I made a set of really stupid dangerous homemade weapons, including an envenomed dagger and a hazardous kind of taser? That's what good ol' Shawn did. So many bad possibilities. Useless is better than actively counterproductive.
If I make my own fun, pray it's at least as good as useless, not bad in a way that rivals that ass.
There's some degree of good point there. Time I spend matching little colored blobs doesn't translate into writing, or stone carving, or really any useful pursuit. ADHD brains seek stimulation. The colorful stories and drawings that I might have been making...
A phrase popped into my head: You presume control of the output.
Meaning, that rewind me thirty years, give or take, and contemplate my younger self. My options are limited. How am I entertaining myself?
Here is the big computer. There is the open WordPerfect document. What brilliant thing could I be writing?
On the other side of the screen, I double click and the King of Hearts joins his queen. Cards fly out and bounce. Solitaire.
Or I could be making a picture based packing list for a trip I'll never go on, and spend half the afternoon making sure the sprite representing the pocket squirt gun is pixel-perfect.
Those are vaguely constructive. What if I made a set of really stupid dangerous homemade weapons, including an envenomed dagger and a hazardous kind of taser? That's what good ol' Shawn did. So many bad possibilities. Useless is better than actively counterproductive.
If I make my own fun, pray it's at least as good as useless, not bad in a way that rivals that ass.
