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Jan. 15th, 1998 08:02 pm980115.2002, Thu
Romance is being troublesome. H still loves me incredibly much. Dear gods. She lusts after me, rather. She also is a friend, first, last, and always, and is unwilling to sacrifice a friend for a lover, however willing and enthusiastic. I’d miss her as a friend too…but can’t we try again? For fear of driving her away I went flirtatious…and that was the wrong path to take. Now, for fear of driving her away a second time, I’ll stay friendly. But she didn’t back away from my hand when I was caressing her leg. I know very well that the calf is one of the trigger points on me.
Romance is being troublesome. H still loves me incredibly much. Dear gods. She lusts after me, rather. She also is a friend, first, last, and always, and is unwilling to sacrifice a friend for a lover, however willing and enthusiastic. I’d miss her as a friend too…but can’t we try again? For fear of driving her away I went flirtatious…and that was the wrong path to take. Now, for fear of driving her away a second time, I’ll stay friendly. But she didn’t back away from my hand when I was caressing her leg. I know very well that the calf is one of the trigger points on me.
