my power, my pleasure, my pain
Feb. 21st, 2002 12:23 pmYesterday told Darkside, finally, that my letter to him and the attendant confusion on October 16 were the last pass at him he will get out of me: all else is kidding around or wishful thinking.
Something has come loose between us that was painfully tight before. Something vital. Something that's easy, pleasant, now. Something makes the smiles come, the touch on the shoulder, the sharing of computer humor.
Adam saw him yesterday, coming into the Cholla lab with an overlayer of "Grr grouch grump stupid group project stupid group where the fuck is my stupid slacker group?" overlying his mind. Underlying, was "Happy boing boing happy happy happy silly happy happy!"
Odd combination, those, and Adam was starting to wonder what was up, when he saw me tailing Darkside in, also projecting happy.
...So Darkside enjoys my company now, more than he did. (This was before telling him that he had nothing more to worry about...)
Today I slept in until time for class; today, still, Darkside was happy to see me. The server crashed in the middle of his presentation. He told me all about it, afterwards.
Something has come loose between us that was painfully tight before. Something vital. Something that's easy, pleasant, now. Something makes the smiles come, the touch on the shoulder, the sharing of computer humor.
Adam saw him yesterday, coming into the Cholla lab with an overlayer of "Grr grouch grump stupid group project stupid group where the fuck is my stupid slacker group?" overlying his mind. Underlying, was "Happy boing boing happy happy happy silly happy happy!"
Odd combination, those, and Adam was starting to wonder what was up, when he saw me tailing Darkside in, also projecting happy.
...So Darkside enjoys my company now, more than he did. (This was before telling him that he had nothing more to worry about...)
Today I slept in until time for class; today, still, Darkside was happy to see me. The server crashed in the middle of his presentation. He told me all about it, afterwards.