Sparktest: personality. Some insights on my multiplicity.

The Spark's Personality Test

Mentor
(Submissive Extrovert Abstract Thinker )

Like just 6% of the population you are a MENTOR (SEAT). Some would call you the most powerful and influential of all people. Those people are wrong.

The reality is that you DON'T really WANT to impose personal views or beliefs on others. Yet you are extroverted and intelligent, and you like to get involved. So you help others with the pursuit of knowledge.

You're the reason that people say "teachers are also students." You are as much a learner as a master, and this satisfies you.

You won't die a lonely death, but towards the end you'll grow introspective, wondering if your life meant anything. This will last for decades, and you'll die after your spouse.

Lonely place, up there with brain in the clouds, eh? Only a very few people are able to keep up with my brain, at least out of the people I know. Or so it seems. In reality, I gather like minds around myself, and rarely let them go. At any given hour of the day, it's possible for me to get in contact with a friend, perhaps not someone who will think the same way I do, but someone who will have an interesting insight as to what my newest thought means.

Odd.

Last time I took this test, I came out

DREAMER
( Submissive Introverted Abstract Feeler )

You are a DREAMER (SIAF)--reserved and imaginative. You are basically the shy, silent type. You don't have much interest in facts and figures or most of what’s going on around you, but the internal worlds you build for yourself are rich and complex. Luckily, your creativity and strong heart mean you have a deep personality evident to anyone who gets to know you. It's just that not many people do, because most everyone thinks you’re a loser. Talk to yourself less, other people more, little shaver.

Depending on how my moods are going, I swap between introverted and extroverted, thinker and feeler. The submissive and abstract are fairly well established; perhaps the abstract more so than the submissive.
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Holy Shit: personal realization.

Yep, that's exactly what it's been with my personalities.

I am Submissive. My Dominant side is a bitch if allowed more than 50% out; Dominant overall is not a trait I admire in myself. I do not know how to handle it.

I am Abstract. Every time I go Concrete, I become obsessive-compulsive, and that's just not good for me. I avoid this.

My historical personalities, 1994-2001:

• Joan-prime was Extroverted, Feeler, sociable and emotional and very agreeable, somewhat prone to dramatics.


• Mona is Introverted, Feeler. All emotion, no voice. Literally. It takes a supreme act of Will to get her to speak. She has been known to speak for Darkside.


• Shanna is Extroverted, Thinker. Plays well with others, but keeps the brains online at all times. Watches out and keeps emotions from getting out of control.


• Azz was Introverted, Thinker. Doesn't give a damn for what other people think; keeps well to herself. Is always working on a new idea. Shanna and Azz merged into the new JL-dominant personality; lately, the sociable side has been coming out more.

Very interesting.

These days, I've been neglecting my SIAF too much. That's the essential function that Darkside fills in my emotional life. He's been there. He knows how it is. He cares about me, and I about him. I can talk to him with that side of me. He won't hurt me. I can almost trust him not to hurt me.

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Brews: Exorcise, Purify, Protect, Heal, Sleep.

Exorcise, Purify, Protect, Heal & Sleep Brew

One cup vodka.
5 drops peppermint essential oil.
4 drops orange essential oil.
1 largeish pinch cinnamon powder.
2 drops rosemary essential oil.
1 drop clove essential oil.

Mix. Consume with care.

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Votania says perhaps a little heavy on the peppermint. I think it's just fine. Adam was overwhelmed. Our neighbor Wol liked it fairly well.

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This is the imbibable version of the bath salts I made this winter that worked so well for clearing out the evil stress of dealing with Votania's family.

Random Happy Friends Note

I so do like it when people on my friends list meet in my journal, discuss something deep, and then friend each other. That gives me a happy feeling.

Honing My Rage

Calling bank to try to get things working with the debit card from my home bank. The one person who can help me is not in at the moment. I left my home number and name, and will call back when I get in after school.

Grr and argh.

The bank did not pick up after the first X number of rings, so the calling card gave up. This does not bode well for future calls.

I need to get this done, SOON.

Yayyyy! (Bank)

Called bank when I thought they should be open (15 minutes after stated time). Found that phone card autohangsup after X number of rings. Also found out that I have the number to said bank memorized.

Called again; answered on first ring. Transferred to voicemail of chick who deals with such things. Left full name, account number, phone number, and problem.

marxdarx took a message while I was out; they said they fixed it. ["It" being that my old debit card had expired, my new one had yet to be activated, but was sitting under a pile of STUFF until after the 30-day "call this 800#" period.] Checked with ATM. ATM now knows my name. As I didn't request a reissued PIN, their randomly assigned and duly memorized one is still valid.

Yay. Grocery shopping, plus taking care of assorted personal care things (dentist, eye doctor, female health, general checkup) are now possible. Yay parents!!

New Quote from me...

on driving, and Votania's apprehensions about driving again after so long: "It's just like riding a bicycle. Once you've fallen off, you can always fall off again."

Gave blood today.

One pint short, feeling better now. Had to lie down again for a while after donating, as was feeling low and a little dizzy. I started craving water right after giving blood. Not being thirsty, just craving water, like I ordinarily might crave chocolate, or salad.

Votania's super-energized with the coming of summer, so while I was walking slowly, she was walking fast. Nice mismatch.

Visited a few shops down in the 20th st & Camelback area, the local Book Star and Jutenhoops, this really damn cool store with Lots Of Stuff. I got Nephew a new book, and a few for myself.

Damn computer is doing Bad Things. Must post before crash.

Annoying Little Trick

Computer is switching out of whatever window I'm working in. It's not switching to another window, it's just switching... out.

Unnerving. A stuck key?

For Future Reference: the LJ Insanity Link (dada dodo; dissociated press)

http://www.antispin.net/~martine/cgi-bin/insanity.cgi?azurelunatic

...even though it may not be working at the moment.