Date?

soju, Adam, and I went out and saw a movie. Panic Room. Anyone who liked Ekaterin's performance on the space station in Komarr, you are the people I am recommending this movie to.

...Oh, yeah, and anybody else who likes suspenseful movies with a tinge of humor and strong female protagonists, two of them.

Interesting. (book commentary)

Felt some very strong resonances between Terry Goodkind's Faith of the Fallen (about as thick as a standard Robert Jordan) and Ayn Rand. Specifically, The Fountainhead.

I shall have to re-read both books to think further upon it. Atlas Shrugged as well.

Eeeks! Another quiz! ...Malfoy?? (and ramble)

Draco Malfoy is your perfect guy!

You like guys like him,

arrogant and acid-jokers.

a real Slytherin!

You don't care if he's rich as

(daddy son), long as he won't change.

discover who's your perfekt HP guy here

Evidently the spelling errors are deliberate. The quiz does allow you to skip questions.

This would be the correct answer for cassieclaire's Draco Malfoy, but I doubt that the standard HP canon Malfoy (who's a nasty little snot, even if you do know him personally and are friends with him) would work with me at all. When I was in my teens, a guy who acted like Malfoy to me, and persisted in it (fortunately, IRL, none did) would have been on the receiving end of a nice hearty slap.

I did smack a guy over the head with a library book (paperback) for asking me on a date once... it was when I knew that anybody hitting on me was only hitting on me to make fun of me. In retrospect, he was a nice guy, and he was just flirting... if I'd dated him, I would have been hanging out with the 'in' crowd.

I've seen my career, lifepaths branching. I have yet to quite find the centerpoint upon which the paths are all leading back to.

...I've seen this. It glows in my mind, bright purple. Shawn is somewhere around the center of the decision tree, the point where it all started changing back. First Shawn. Then DeVry. Then computers. ...no. First Shawn. Then ...

It's crossing on me. It's not neat and tidy. But where I strayed from my original Intent, there I'm coming back. Coming home. I formulated my statement of intent tightly after all. How young was I? How did I program myself? I'm a programmer, a writer, an artist, a teacher. I want students, not children.

"Pain hurts, sir. I don't court it." --MNVK

So.

You don't want to spend time outside of school with me.

I'm getting the idea. How nice of you to flee before I was finished processing the concept.

Bald Guy suggested that perhaps, if he finally came up with a gaming group, we could hang out there. Ha. Like you'd ever tell me where and when it was. I'm beginning to get the idea.

No, turning down the proposal of a group trip to see Spiderman does not a complete rejection make. But turning it down thus: "a) I'm working; b) ...No," after saying that this was indeed one of the movies you were planning to see... that's a rejection.

Having you as a friend means a lot to me. Perhaps, from your perspective, too much. The concept of having a friend I can see outside of school, at least in theory, if schedules ever match up... thanks. Thank you very much.

Oh yeah.

"group trip" != "date".

Run, then scream.

My day:

School. Conversation about movies with Darkside. Chat with Bald Guy until the worst of the tears are over. Come back home, grab quasi-lunch stuff, leave to go check out plasma donation place. Come back home in a bit of a grump because they don't have the staff to give all newbies a physical. On the way home, start re-analyzing the implications of what Darkside said. Write up entry; cry some more. Let Adam read entry, because voice is not trustworthy.

Have a chat with Adam on the topic of the inadvisability of changing oneself to fit the standards that one's beloved would prefer in a mate. Explain to him that while certainly there have been some heavy selfchanges going on, it's because the me that I am around Darkside is my favorite of the people I can be, and I'm working to keep this personality at more times than just with him. The person I am around him is demonstratably not his idealization of the perfect woman. Were I trying to be that woman, I'd be in some serious shit. But I'm not. I'm trying to be myself, the best, sweetest, spunkiest version of myself I can be.

We snuggled after that discussion. Adam remarked that perhaps Darkside was afraid to do anything more than friendship, because I have many of the same personality-tags as Votania.

There was more discussion, gradually leading into the next topic...

I said something about his talking with V, referring to her attitude as "playing 'Respect you, Respect you not'" ...and then the one-ton featherbed hit him.

She's trying to mold him into her ideal man.

I've been thinkin' 'bout catchin' a change...

Adam came to his own realization that V is attempting to mold him into her perfect man (read: a copy of her current man) for long-term marriage in the future.

He's somewhat ambivalent about a realization that I'd be running screaming from. Some of the changes have been with his consent.